I just woke up from my nap (it seems I do quite a lot of napping here at CYSN). I couldn’t sleep last night due to the anticipation of my youngest starting Kindy today. I didn’t want to go to bed and not be able to sleep, full of anxiety on thoughts of how today would go. So Hubby stayed up with me and we played “Who Wants to be a Millionaire” app until I was sleepy enough – I did still wake up in the middle of the night though.
I cried my eyes out this morning after I said goodbye to him, comforted by Hubby and my older son ❤ I managed to take only one picture of him before the battery died on my camera and was thankful it was a great shot.
We are transitioning him into school by having shorter days these next 2 days. Hubby was to be on standby incase the school called if he was too distressed. He didn’t get any calls and my heart eased a bit more as the morning progressed. Hubby was told that Zach was giving high-5s to the staff during the school tour and was in good spirit.
When he was picked up after a few hours, Hubby told me he was eating his morning tea with his classmates (that was a bit of a worry too whether he was going to have anything to eat at all), so that was great! These pictures were captured by his teacher who let me know that Zach had a great morning and eased into his activities without any distress.
He came home to me with the biggest smile and said “School is fun!” My heart eased and knew what I knew in my heart of hearts … that he will be Okay!
I guess the anxiety had built up for over a year and a half when we decided to delay him starting Kindy, but glad we did as I believe he wouldn’t have handled it as well if we started last year. After knowing the great day that was had, Hubby and I looked at each other and smiled. We tried to nap on the couch before picking up our older boy and realised how tiring it is to be worrying parents.
Whatever the next few days, term or year bring for my little one, I will remember this day and think he will be Okay! He is my different kind of wonderful little man and am happy that I am his mother that worries about him ❤
Awww Mariane, he looks absolutely gorgeous in his uniform! I bet he’s going to have a great year. Such a little treasure that one :’) I got a bit teary reading this post because i too worried about my eldest but everything works out in the end 😉
Yes, the beauty of hindsight, huh? Also a wonderful effect of this is finding out how gentle and comforting my older son is becoming. A couple of weeks back we had a loss in our family, and Josh just comforted me with his small but strong hug while I cried it out ❤
Such precious thoughts xx thank you for sharing. I’m glad Zach had a good first day! It’s good to have a good day to refer back to when we need to. I will send him (and you!) lots of loving thoughts… “He will be OKAY!” 🙂
“He will be Okay, I will be Okay, we’ll all be Okay!” Thanks A-M for your continued support and love across the border 🙂 xxx